Below are the 14 most recent journal entries recorded in lucid_symbollic's LiveJournal:

Thursday, March 4th, 2004
4:46 pm	I`m over it Tina Tigue AKA porn Star Phoenixxx Blaque is a BITCH, talk about a nut case....more later, I`m off to go see PRIMUS Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: Primus (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 2nd, 2004
1:19 pm	hot tub getting a hot tub today, the friend of my uncle who bought his old house in south Tampa is getting a new hot tub and asked me if I wanted the old one....Hell Yeah, it`s in perfect shape, it`s the same one that my uncle owned when he lived there, so, I`m gonna store it out back here until the deal goes through on the house (more on that later) ok freaks, I`m out Peace 93 Current Mood: excited Current Music: Pink Floyd (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 28th, 2004
3:56 pm	a New family member I GOT IT!!! yep, I traded in my 2 Charvel guitars on a black Randy Rhoads Jackson warped flying V and it kicks ass!!! I am so jazzed, it sounds great, plays great and I couldn`t be happier, gonna work on some new music today and night SOOOOOOOO....... Peace ya`all Current Mood: artistic Current Music: Lucid Symbollic Dream - Nasty Nasty Nasty (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 25th, 2004
4:58 pm	Cats almost forgot, we got 4...Count `em...4 (I know you won`t but fuckin` count them anyway!!!) we got "Fizzer" (the world`s most beautiful cat....even if he is a butter ball turkey) "Shop Cat" (a cat that can`t even pick a color to be, a calico...figures) "Diva", (the little kitten/siameses MONSTER, totally out of control, won`t leave Fizzer alone and wants to attack every cat in the house)....then there`s my familier..."Morganna" a 16 year old black cat that is my world, she is everything a person could ever hope for, she was taken from me after a break up, got loose and found her way back to me OVER a mile away PLUS, she picked me to begin with, that is real LOVE (Comment on this)
2:44 pm	a side note it`s the funniest thing, Diva (the the little monster, crazy girl kittie) LOVES to sleep in my guitar case and I can`t bring myself to close it and put it away, I swear, it`s the cats`s world, we just live in it, Fizzer and Diva are the cutiest together, gonna post some pics (Comment on this)
2:27 pm	wet day Wed. not much to say today, trying to get all my money stuff together for tax time, gonna try and see about a few houses and a possible car deal as well (a family friend has a car that is a 2000 and mine is a `96 SOOOOO :) already started work on my new CD, it`s going pretty well (but not much sleep, I work best at 3:00am it seems) ok FREAKS, Peace Out 93 Current Mood: tired Current Music: to many to say, BUSY (Comment on this)
Monday, February 23rd, 2004
10:56 am	What Was It That You Said? oh yeah, here`s another poem I wrote What was it that you said, you wished that I was dead? When all this time we Played together Worked together Fought together Loved together Cried together Laughed together Build a world only to tear it to shreds ? Exposed our inner selves to one another Only to have them crushed beneath your stiletto heels And my whiskey cheers Do you have an inner soul ? Does it bleed like mine ? True love comes once a life time And you were mine I made mistakes My biggest mistake was to LOVE too much It scares you I know It`s so much easier to let things come and go So easy to walk away When the Love isn`t real but play No one hurts No one cries No emptiness No soul that dies I miss your smile I miss your laugh My minds eye goes back in time To a place that was yours and mine There`s too much water under the bridge But Love is thicker than water It`s so easy to focus on the bad times Make those the most important things But the truth is this Real Love is just that REAL Current Mood: artistic (Comment on this)
10:48 am	Monday Monday Monday not much to other than it`s FUCKIN` MONDAY!!! heading to take a shower then work, graded animation projects, got a quiz all lined up for my afternoon class, gonna call Al at the guitar center about the "V" and see what we can set up, feeling a bit better, Peace ya all 93 Current Mood: indifferent Current Music: nada (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 22nd, 2004
8:48 pm	oh well Al wasn`t in today at the guitar center so I just chilled, gotta call tomorrow, read some interesting things, you know, it`s not easy being someone so hated but, I grew up that way so it`s ok, I try to do the right thing but as usual, it`s always wrong, what the fuck, one day I`ll be dead and it won`t matter, can`t wait for that...ok, well, whatever Peace 93 Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Black Sabbath (Comment on this)
11:36 am	new guitar day well well, looks like I`m going to trade in my pink and black Charvel guitar (YES, I said PINK, it`s a guitar I got from a pawn shop, plays great but....IT`S FUCKING PINK) I found a Randy Rhoads warped flying V Jackson (a real one) used at the guitar center (and it`s all nice and BLACK, can`t go wrong with BLACK) gonna pick that up and a Korg synth pad, new CD is in the works as we speak, more on that later Peace 93 Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: Lucid Symbollic Dream - Dancing With The Devil (Comment on this)
Friday, February 20th, 2004
7:49 pm	yada yada yada not much to say, did my usual, went to the mall, picked up a couple of CD`s (replacment CD`s, My Life With The Thrill Kill Kult and Metallica, both were ruined) came home for a nap and that`s about it, gee, what an interesting life huh? Current Mood: blank Current Music: My Life With The Thrill Kill Kult (Comment on this)
6:00 am	MAKING THE MONEY MAKING THE MONEY Take a shower Shave those legs Put on the make up Dig deeper the grave Look for an outfit Something sexy yet cheap Matching heels, matching soul What you sow you will reap Making the money Puts you in control Making the money Is that your final goal ? What time is it now Time to do your show Sit back, get comfortable Place the money that you owe Don`t say anything sweetie I`ll take it from here Lay back and enjoy this There`s nothing left to fear Making the money Day in and day out Making the money Do you have your doubts ? The mind of a poet The body of a whore The artist that is in you Doesn`t it want more More More more more more more MORE !!! I watch you through this screen I see you struggle through So much I see in you What`s left that I can do ? Making the money Strangers every night Making the money The morning shows the light Making the money Your control it is a lie Making the money It`s just another way to die Making the money Do you feel your in control Making the money Or do you feel you`ve lost your soul ? Making the……….what ? Current Mood: artistic Current Music: Nada (Comment on this)
5:54 am	PEDISTALS PEDISTALS You see them on T.V. You buy all their CD`s Hero whorship on the grandest scale Bigger than life Greek GODS No one can come close In your eyes Forged of marble and stone Perfect, for your eyes alone Write your fantasies The perfect world to be The truth, you`ll never see Rise them up on a pedestal So perfect you can tell Made for you, under your spell All your dreams on a pedestal Always being the victim Your hero`s ready to save you Call to them in fantasy Your GODS only enslave you Current Mood: artistic Current Music: nothing (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 18th, 2004
10:40 am	And it begins I should have done this a LOOOOONG time ago, HELLO ALL!!! YES, it`s true, I`m the "EVIL EX" of Phoenixxx Blaque (Tampa Florida Porn wannabe, Slut, Cheap Whore at a shop here and all around fucked up BITCH) yep, you can fuck her (with or without condoms, depending on what you pay) for a price. the serious problem here is the risk factor, I posted on her lournal about this BUT (of course) she took it down, WELL here`s the real deal.... I met her going on 9 years ago or more she was a sex phone girl then she wanted to be a Porn Star, I feel for "THE GIRL" but the Porn thing was always the big deal during my 5 + years with her, we did a Hell of a lot of work in the Porn biz together (all her pics and videos and everything was from when we were together...ALL wanted by HER for her career) of course, true to form, she now blaims me for her doing everything YET at the same time, almost 4 years later, she still posts every extreme pic of herself AND has done even more, figure that one out??? NOW, to the heart of the matter she cheated and fucked around on me with most of my friends (which arn`t friends anymore, a real friend wouldn`t do that) what gets me is SHE laid the ground rules of an open relationship, we don`t go behind each other`s backs, I NEVER did, she did a ton of time, I loved her and took her back each time. soon after we got together (about 6 months) she had her first outbreak of Herpies (that she never told me about and swore that wasn`t what it was) she told me that she had been getting these "outbreaks" for a few years now and it was just a "skin condistion" I realized what was up early on (and thankfully, dodged my first bullet) I finnally got her to go to the Doctor during an outbreak and he told her, "you have Herpies", at last she couldn`t tell me she didn`t have it (but she tells no one now, even though she has sex for money) he gave her a perscription that she never took and never followed (in her messed up mind, if she ignores it, it isn`t real) next comes the Lieing, Cheating and yes...DISEASES!!! this is the main reason behind this post during my time with her she had caught...Gonnoria )which she gave to a Guy named Cory that she was cheating on me with AND throwing it in my face that she was in Love with him UNTIL she gave him a disease and he left her (also, a side note, I told her to move in with him if that`s how she felt, he said no...LOL) on to Siffulis and the Clap and the HIV scare, yes, she`s had both of the first two luckily enough (yet unluck for a friend) there was some talk about a couple we knew that the female ended up with HIV, Phoenixxx had played with her a few times and it was thought that she had given it or gotten it from her (Phoenixxx has NEVER gotten an HIV test sense then, she`s too scared to get on....I have and dodged a second bullet luclily) the break up!!! we break up, she ends up marrying a friend, they are together for a couple of years (now remember, this is a girl that after we were together "and I seen her book/record/score card, that told me at age 25 that she had had over 75 "BOYFRIENDS" with info on each one written down in a journal, creeped me out) well as she`s written, the marriage is now over, what she didn`t say is that he called me and told me why, she`s cheating and also gave him the Clap from her job, he desided when they were at the doctors office, and he was looking at her (with a Herpies outbreak as well) that he`d had enough so I`m posting this (of course, as the EX FROM HELL) as a warning to you guys that go see her, this is all true and can be easily be proved, your call now ok, there`s my first post Peace 93 Current Mood: indescribable Current Music: Lucid Symbollic Dream - Digital Religion (Comment on this)